I have a recurring nightmare where I’m being consumed by vampires. You know, the old Boogie Man scenario. I’m usually taken in by someone who appears to be one thing and then turns out to be something else, in this case, a vampire. I often wake from this horror and pull the covers over my head like a little child and pray God to let me go back to sleep without the damn vampires glistening teeth and glowing eyes. It’s so real it scares the living shit out of me. I’ve always believed that this vampire dream is possibly some Jungian symbolism or perhaps a curse left behind from some former jilted lover. Some fear of others taking my life from me in some symbolic way. I always figured it was the vampires out to get me. But today I had another thought. What if I am the vampire?
I’m beginning to think that my recurring vampire dreams are a horror of my own actions. As someone who dabbles in words I have become the thief of others lives. Since my own experiences will only pale in comparison to the host of stories and lives that surround me, I’ve become, unconsciously at first, and now consciously aware of others around me and dreaming of their stories and lives. I listen to the words of others, not because I give a damn or have any empathy or concern, but because I know that at any moment I could harvest a word or emotion from their lips. I listen and sometimes look into their eyes, but like the un-dead, I take the heart of their lives and the sum of their soul, the blood of their very existence. Is the horror of my dreams my own judgment against myself for the theft of their personality, a sin that may be more vial than the spilling of blood? The theft of their very heart and soul and the substance that makes them who they are has become my crime.
I have become the gatherer of tears. The dream-stalker.
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mary-a. 08.14.04 at 6:05 pm
the ying and the yang…the bad and the good make up everything…you write poetry…you “steal” … what? from others…but are they going to use it anyway???
if you do a search for “dream symbol vampire” you’ll see lots of interesting stuff…including your theory….
john ford 08.15.04 at 9:12 am
Honestly… it amazes me that anyone reads any of my psychobabble.
pe 09.19.04 at 7:19 am
Hello Johnford,
I am pe, and I explain dreams on the internet (normally in Dutch). I was doing a “dream symbol vampire” search on Google, to get more info about vampires - which brought me to this page.
A vampire in dreams can have more meanings, but many times it has to do with sex. Especially when young people dream it.
A vampire is a symbol of consciousness, which is not pure. And a vampire is sometimes drinking blood, which is a symbol for drinking someone’s energy. This can be the sexual energy. If a vampire has a sexual meaning in dreams, the consciousness looses its purity because of these sexual desires.
If you are scared of vampires in your dreams, I think these dreams may want to tell you, that you’re scared of sex and of the impurity, which then is your real feeling.
So if you feel this could be the meaning of your nightmares, then try to accept the fact that these are your real feelings about sex. (I know most people think differently about sex, but not all of them).
If this is the right explanation and if you try to accept this, then the nightmares should not come back - or not come back so often - of they will change into much less scary nightmares.
Hope you can do something usefull with this explanation.
I would say: try it - and try to feel if this explains your nightmares - and see if they go away. You can mail me too, if you wish.
greetz, pe.
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